sunday night. not much to say except things are ok. i am ok. i have been working super hard to not be codependent i.e. make other people responsible for my happiness or unhappiness etc. it has helped. i have been thinking more about self care and what it means to love ourselves. this guy at a meeting said that for a year or so into his recovery he would wake up, look in the mirror and say--i like you, i love you, i forgive you. i really like this idea. i think i read once that carol burnett would look in the morning everyday and say good morning beautiful. i love both of these ideas. i love the idea of loving ourselves even when we dont like ourselves. i love unconditional self love. i never hear about it though.

so this is my newest challenge: to love me--everyday. not when things go well but all of the time. 24/7 self love. i think this is where i need to start. at the source. how can i expect to love others well if i cant do this first. i need to do this not just for me but for my kids. we all deserve this. i believe that. we all deserve our own best care and compassion. as i start this week this is what i am working on. i hope you work on it too. dont we all deserve it. i think so. i dont think we should wait any longer to start being our own best friends. xx k